Insidious Insight

Rather than fighting when repeatedly attacked I like to write. Here my assailants can be imaginatively deposed…

The peck, peck, pecking,
Had to stop.
The bird had to die, or
Fly. I made it
Flee. Feathers scattered
Like leaves

Behind it’s behind.
The dust it kicked up,
The mess it left.
Reluctantly I picked
At, kissing teeth
Wanting to give chase!

Make sure it left, or
Died bloody.
Sometimes bloody is
What the Leghorn
Knows. Head cocked sideways
Cocky confident.

Airless, knowing less
Every passing day.
I should have chased
Him, made sure he’d
Gone away – dead.
Bad feelings stirred.

Can’t shake them loose!
Stupid goose, silly
Rabbit, crazy
Chicken.

What’s left, are little
Eggs, that can’t be
Seen, felt nor found.
But grow and sap
Strength, from all
Wounded nouns.

Invisibly unlike
Chinese knot weed!
A vine that kills
Everything bound.
Strangling for air,
I wish we never

Met, because your
Depravity eats inside
Of me, like seeds,
From a rotting flower.
Infected my story.
Illuminating what psychology

Can not undo.
The persistent pecking,
From a past riddled
With you
Inside of it.
With lies told.

Continuously, confusingly,
Laboriously splitting,
Futures infinitely.
Denying freshness
Chance to break
In and free…

And look at,
Us, You, her, them.
A quickening,
Insanity installation.
Ruins the light

Again

Resources
Criminal Call Russ Ewing

Images
Photo by Wolfgang Hasselmann on Unsplash
Photo by Vidar Nordli-Mathisen on Unsplash

MARIPOSA QUE SE PIERDE: UN POEMA

Reconozco que una gran
Tragedia ocurrió la ultima
Vez que comimos
Juntos

Tiernamente compartiendo el
Dolor a traves de las mesas de cenar
Escuchando a otros reir y charlar en
Silenciosos colores sobre
Los eventos de anoche
Como si nada
importante estuviera sucediendo
Entre
Nosotros

El jirón significativo
Pensé que podría ser valiente y
Permanecer fuerte y
Afable.
Esto
Comenzó con un paseo
Al lado del agua amurallada.
El paseo a la vez largo
Y alegre. Los dos
Riendonos y charlando
De camino a Candem.
Finalizando lentamane hacia
Una esclusa y cervezas.

Cervezas compartidas – problemas reducidos a la mitad?

Siempre con cervezas.
Cuatro años necesitando
que te quedes y
Continues con tu
No tan tierna e insistente
Fuerza empujando mi
Mente a un nuevo ‘awareni’
Y entonces te fuiste.

Perdido.
Aleteando como un
Pez salido del agua,
Sin el amparo del
Profundo azul que me continue
Sujetando, guiando, nutriendo
Reforzando.

Tu ciudad no es tan lejana
Pero ya parece
Demasiado largo trayecto.
Un amigo vagabundo
Amenudo dice ‘Hasta que
nos volvamos a ver’ y sé
Que eso no puede ser
Hasta que el velo
Se levante. Imperceptible
Una madeja, tan delicada
como un encaje de tela de araña.
Hilado de oro,
Aunque apenas usado.

Cuando nos volvamos a encontrar
Será para decir
Con la boca llena de
‘lo siento’ que el mundo
Mi mundo era mas cálido
Cuando estabas
Cerca. Ahora un gélido
Amanecer me espera con
tu version de ‘tonto ido’

Esta pérdida hiere como las
Demás, como todas las partidas
Finalmente hacen. Solamente esta
Es a causa del descuido
Fue mi propia derrota.

En pie erguido como una
Cabeza Minoica medio enterrada,
Melancólico, oscuro
Gris. El trueno aplaude,
Lluvia.
De nuevo

Image:
Photo by Jonas Jacobsson on Unsplash

Thank you to Susanah for the assistance with a better translation!

Perdiendo Mariposa

Reconozco un gran
La tragedia sucedió cuando
Lo ultimo que comimos
Juntos

Compartiendo suavemente el
Daño en la cena
Mesas escuchando a otros
Ríete y habla
Silenciosos colores sobre el último
Noches eventos como si nada
Importante sucedía entre nosotros.

La lágrima significativa y
Pensé que podría ser
Valiente y fuerte y
Permanecer resistente y
Afable. Esta cosa
Comenzó con un paseo
Por agua amurallada.

La caminata tanto larga
Y chistoso. Los dos
Riendo y hablando
Camden atado.
Enrollando lentamente hacia
Un lago y cervezas.

Siempre con cervezas.
Cuatro años de necesitar
Que te quedes y
Continúa con tu
No tan gentil insistente
Fuerza empujando mi
Mente a nuevos awareni
Y luego te fuiste.

Perdido.
Tambaleándose como un
Pescado sacado del agua,
Sin el equilibrio de la
Azul profundo para continuar el
Sosteniendo, guiando el cuidado
Afirmando

Tu ciudad no esta tan lejos
Pero ya parece
Demasiado gran tramo para.
Un amigo sin hogar
A menudo dice ‘Hasta que
Nos vemos de nuevo y lo sé
Eso no puede pasar


Hasta que un velo es
Levantado Imperceptible
Una madeja, tan delicada
como un encaje de telarañas
Hilado dorado,
Sin embargo, rara vez se usa.

La próxima vez que lo veamos
Será para decir con
Un bocado de soy
penas que el mundo
Mi mundo estaba mas caliente
Cuando eras
Cerca. Ahora un refrigerador
El amanecer me espera con
Tu versión de tonto se fue.

Esta pérdida corta como el
Otros como todas las salidas
Finalmente hacer. Solo esto
Uno causado por negligencia
Fue por mi propia ruina.

De pie como la mitad
Cabeza minoica enterrada,
Meditando de color morado oscuro
Gris. Es trueno
Aplausos y lluvia.
De nuevo

My thanks to Google Translate.

A Poem for Narcissus

Educating Narcissus

Show a distorted
Image almost
a picture of
Dorian Gray.

Display in good enough 
Light, invite 
Introspection.
The image pointing
Through the grotesque,
The distended
Wanting horror
To shock 
And drama and 
Show no mercy.
Never – invite in
Pain.

Wanting the subject to
Ask, is that how 
People see me? 
Is that How 
You
See me? 
Is that really 
Me? The answer 
always 

Yes!
To me
As horrible as the image you see
And more
And worse
Bloody and bleeding
Seething knot
Weeded seedlings
Killing, tangling
Feeding a never.

They in handsome 
Refrain, now 
Strained fighting to 
Escape change in 
Small things, notice
The armaments, denial 
Shame, angling to 
Reframe, growth may 
Arrive next and
Demand sought to 
End Pain, transgress 

Frustrate this
No more. 

A Review- Black Leopard Red Wolf

Black Leopard Red Wolf
Imagine if you will a non linear telling of an African history told without colonial conventions about story time and whose voice is the narrator or the keeper of the story. 

Black Leopard Red Wolf 
Is Marlon’s invention of an African past unsullied by the misapprehension of the European. Marlon crafts this book breaking away from the idea of past present and Future. Skillfully he weaves a story together from a possible ancestral past that is rich with magic and risk and myth. 

Black Leopard Red Wolf 

Marlon James and Black leopard Red Wolf 1st in Trilogy

Is a book to lose an idea of up down and other *polemities. The book teases and plays with language timing and of telling a story in a fashion that other stories are often told. It is an opus, an operatic explosion diverse and divisive in creating a new African mystery. 

Black Leopard Red Wolf
Is to be read with care. The misdirects and loose narrative can befell the unweary traveller. There are moments of outstanding beauty, and times where Marlon plays with the idea of trauma and horror. Take your time and enjoy a new way of being told a truly original story. There are moments too when you will laugh out loud and be surprised.

How to

To read and make use of the blogs I write.

View them as poems in long form. The hyperlinks are a gateway. Click and follow the pebbles – new awareni* awaits.

Read with an aim to deep dive into topics and subjects that are as interesting as they are exhumations about difference, about life lived at the boundaries: criminal justice, education, therapy, art, Multiple Sclerosis and being othered by society.

The blogs are:

A point of reference.

A placeholder for thought and reflection about oneself, about another, about us.

Read for perspective making.

Read for evaluation and test taking.

Explore for tips and learning and for ideas about baking.

They are slices of condensation, concentrations and at times my consternation’s – for living is a complex choice. An activity of thinking, doing, breathing, resting and being bored. Often…

Be perplexed and curious.

Ask for clarity if you dare!

Comment and be prepared for answers and yet more questioning.

Let us open up dialogues just because.

It could all be oh so much better.

Even these,

Blogs…

Crush

Crush

Blue freeze frame wave

Awe in Azure

Awe never describes
Width in liquid girth
Amazed views
Crushed immensity
*Uncontainable
You

A wave about to break

Cyan Turquoise Wave

All enmeshed
Azures soft movement
Tranquil rhythms unending
Surprising furiously
Eroding curves
You

Bubbles stratifying

Caught Beneath

Inescapable
Bubbles
Mirthless faces
Flexible rubbing
Time *turqoised
You

Stuck and glassy wave

Water Frieze

Epitome in Translucency
Thief
Erasing pasts
Hidden deep
Increases
You

Wave of Might

Flexible Might

Waves disappear
Salty cascades
Rise and Fall
Continuous Change
Strengthens
You

Collaboration offers chance to hone a piece in amazing ways. Add your suggestions for lines 31, 32, 33 in the comments below.

My aim – complete Crush by Saturday the 1st Dec 2018 with the suggestion coming from OnlyRae.

Thank you for the support…

The podcast link below discusses a piece of work written in tattoos on a collection of bodies.

The Allusionist Podcast